School is hard. Do I really want to do this for 4 years? No. Do I really want to teach? YES!!!! So I guess I have to take the bad with the good. The work is so hard, and it's overwhelming at times. I just don't know what to do. It makes me feel in adequate. Then Miss wenchy English Prof. won't let me change the topic of the damn paper that I haven't started anyway! Oh hell. I just have a shit load of writing and re-writing to do this weekend. I hate research papers. That's what this really is, it's not an "Investigative Report" It's a damn research paper and I hate it.

James' birthday is in two weeks and it's killing me, he'll be two. He's at the age Thomas was when I was ready for another one. It makes me sad to see him this old. I know we don't need anymore, but....

Dawn lost the baby. She was pregnant and she miscarried about 2 weeks ago. I'm sure she and Vince are devastated. I haven't even seen her yet to express my condolences.

Liz is all worried about no girls coming back to Girl Scouts this year. Frankly, I don't care. If we have a small troop it will be easier for me. So far I think we only have Liz, Courtney, De (?), Ashley, and a new girl, I don't know about Erica and Kristi yet. Oh well.

I am overwhelmed with everything going on in my life right now that I don't really know what to worry about. Everything and nothing. I have to go and write some papers now. One paper is due tomorrow and the other I have to do a presentation on tomorrow. The one I have to do a presentation on, I can't even find resources for! Wish me luck!