Today was nice, slept late, didn't get called to sub :-( but laid out of work. Had a good day with tom, Did laundry, dishes, worked around the house. Did things that need to be done. Then the girls came home. Things went downhill from there. Tom and I decided that we needed to talk to the girls about the way things were done around the house and the way they had been doing things and treating each other. We spent almost an hour with them. I'm not sure they got the point.
I have been way to lenient with them, letting them get away with not doing things, not making them do chores, letting them have "snack" up until dinner time, letting them make deals with each other to get the other one to do what one was told, letting them argue there way out of chores, letting them have priviledges before they got chores done. You know what I mean. I'm just so tired of it all.
Tom and I decided that instead of doing "chores" they would have "duties". When all "duties" are done, they can have priviledges, like computer time and telephone time, stuff like that (Sher if you're reading this and can think of any other priviledges let me know) I am so tried of mouthing off and not getting stuff done and feeling like an 11 yr old is taking advantage of me!
L has been making me feel like such a bad mom lately, its not even funny! If she even knew, that child has no clue! Of course NONE of HER friends have chores, and NONE of HER friends have to do anything and of course, they all have as much money as they could possibly want! And "our house is awful", and "maybe if she liked where she lived she'd want to keep it clean", yes she said exactly that, and yes I had to restrain myself from knocking her backwards.
And I have been giving more thought to D living with Mom & Dad, but Tom doesn't want to do that, because "she is our responsibility". I don't know anymore wheather I think it's a good idea or its just me coppin' out. I just don't know anymore. And I don't know how permanant it would be. I need the wisdom of Soloman.
I don't remember making life this hard for my parents. And I know I sure as hell didn't argue about chores, every Saturday, that damn bathroom was clean, by me, wheather it needed it or not, wheather I liked it or not. No questions. No arguements! Why can't I get my kids to do that. I am to much of a wimp. I give in too much. I know its's true, and so do they. I just need to be strong.
HELP ME!!!!!!!! Need cigarettes and Kaluha. Going to store to get cigs to go with my Kaluha.

Today has been a slow day. The kids have been ok, mostly. Went to Wal-Mart bought a bunch of agter Easter stuff, can't believe I got it for so cheap.... Egg dying kits for $0.20! Couldn't pass it up for next year! Just call me a bargan hunter. Tom is downstairs sleeping. He hasn't been sleeping well at night, so naps during the day are the best he can do.
Thomas got into a jar of peanut butter and got it all over his clothes, now he's running around naked! Good lord! I have a headache!
I am so tired. I have been barely sleeping for fear of rolling over and hurting Tom, so I am over tired myself.
D got the boys up this morning but lord they were so loud, we really didn't get to sleep late, we listened to them scream all morning, even through the doors! And boy were they LOUD! Damn they don't seem to understand how to be quiet!
The boys are getting so big. J discovered he doesn't have to know how to climb ovr the gate, he can climb over the back of the couch, and onto the computer chair and down to get into the kitchen. The little bugger is smart! I'll give him that much.
Crud everything is such a mess! It doesn't matter how much time I spend cleaning, or how much I make the kids clean, it is always such a mess! I hate dealing with all the mess and stress.
But good news is, Adrienne kicked the ass hole out at 1:30 in the morning last night. He got drunk and started cussing her and accussing her of things, she told him she didn't have to listen to that in her house and to take his stuff and get out. She is changing her cell number today, and moving out of her apt. She stayed at Rodneys last night, so he couldn't bother her, hopefully this is the end. Maybe she got the clue. I hope she has learned that she doesn't have to deal with his abusive behavior. I am proud of her for kicking him out though, no car, no where to go, at 1 in the morning in NYC where he knows no-one mwhahahahahah. Evil laughter rings through the air! Serves the SOB right!

And today: Still waiting for Sherrie to call, worried sick about her. Tom is here I can take care of him, but she is sooo far away I can't reach out and hold her, comfort her, take care of my best friend. I need to know all is well. Tom and I are willing to empty out the basement and let you guys move in here until you find a place of your own, plus we have an extra vehicle you can have. We will even come get you! besides, we can use extra help with the kids, and we've got plenty of extra food (ya know with this freezer and all) plus we've got a great yard sale location if wee need some cash, I got some stuff to sell, we can help you catch up on the storage unit, have a yard sale and get jobs, come on guys! We've got a place for you! If nothing else call me!

Now for the 25th: I subed today for Mr cagle, DECA class. Only had to work until 1:15, when the kids went to lunch cause he had 4th period planning, so I could leave in plenty of time to go to be with Tom when they did the surgery. It was only supposerd to be an office procedure, but Tom called during 2nd period after seeing the surgeon and he wanted him to go straight to the hospital, it would be an outpatient procedure, but still done at the hospital. Ellie had the boys so I could be at the hospital with the Tom. My sub job went great, great classes, several kids I'd had before, well behaved, got right down to work. Really great classes. I'm glad I went ahead and took the job. Plus, while I was there Carolyn (Pasetti) asked me to sub for her on Monday :-) and you already know how much I love her class.
So I left at 1:15 and went to the hospital to be with Tom, they took him to surgery about 2:20, He came back from recovery about 4-4:30. The hernia was about 2 1/2 inchs in diameter. The recovery time should be one to two weeks, hopefully less than that, but with the amount of pain he is in, I doubt it. He was in alot of pain and the only thing they gave him for ity was Lortab 5, He asked for more, they gave a shot of Demerol which helped. Unfortunatly, the only thing the surgeon believes in giving his patients is Lortab, which to Tom is like candy. So that is all he has for pain. The pain, by the way, he has equated with doing 1000 sit-ups with a knife in your gut.
We are home now, Tom is having trouble getting comfortable anywhere, buit what can you do?

I haven't written in a few days, but I have sooo much to write about! On the eveningof the 23rd I was asked to sub for a 7th grade English teacher, so I agreed. On the 24th, the day I was to sub for her I was called 4 more times, all by high school teachers (which I prefer) to sub, even Ms Pasetti, I wish I could have called the 7th grade teacher back and told her no and done the job for Ms Pasetti, I love her classes. They are so good to me, but I had already agreeed :-( Oh well. ARGH! 7th graders are so frustrating!
And Tom went to the Doctor today and he wants him to see a surgeon tomorrow about have surgery on an umbilical hernia.

First we write about the good part of the day. I LOVE substituting. I did real teaching today, not just watching movies or reading to them, actual work! World History, I subbed for her before spring break and she called me again this morning. I am so glad, this is the second job this week that is a repeat for a teacher that I have subbed for before. I may also have another call back job for another teacher I've already subbed for before. I really like subbing at the high school. I think I want to be A high school teacher, history or english. I really have an interest in those subjects. Unfortunately, its math and science teachers they really have a call for these days. I really hope teaching is something I can go back to school to do. My classes were wonderful. Josh in 2nd period was great, made me feel great! Said I looked nice today, said he asked Ms Pasetti about me yesterday. He is such a sweetie, he is the one I had such an intense conversation with last time I was there. He made me feel really special, not like any old sub :-) Made my day. I hope I can keep it with me.

Its quieted down a bit, but it will all get going again in a few, as soon as I start getting them ready for bed. I thought now would be a good time to at least start this because I have relative peace and quiet. We'll start with last night. I was really worried about Sherrie, but she seems much better today. I am so glad, releaved I don't have to go up and kick her butt. Last night was nice, Tom read to me for awhile, I really like when he reads to me. We also had some oral sex last night, well I blew him, he fingered me, but it was mutually satisfying, so I can't complain. I love it when he makes me cum really hard like that. We brought the digi-cam down with us, but by the time I had overcome my shyness and was turned on enough to let him take pics, we were both too into the moment to stop, for ANY reason! We fell peacefully asleep naked in each others arms. I love sleeping next to him naked. Unfortunately he got cold in the middle of the night some time and got dressed.
This morning I was called to sub. again. I love subbing at the high school. It is so much better with older kids who you can hold a conversation with than ones you have to mother. I had Tracy Ballews English classes again. Romeo & Juliet. We watched the Leonardo DiCaprio and Clair Danes version. I have now seen the beginning and middle 3 times and have yet to see the end! It's very frustrating! It was ok, the movie I mean. The classes were ok too, I've subbed for this teacher before, so the kids weren't too bad. Of course 4th period was the worst. The best part of the day was coming home at lunch to Tom.
I missed my baby today. I was afraid to leave him today because he was asleep when I left and Thomas sometimes wakes up and gets into things, but Tom said that they slept pretty late and the house didn't fall down. The only really bad thing about the high school is the fact that I don't get to see Tom before he has to leave for work, but its decent money and it's not working for my dad. Which is a better bonus than anyone copuld ask for. I am glad came home for lunch today though, cause I started my period at lunch today and it would have been inconvienient to start at school. Only a day early so no complaints, at least it didn't come over the weekend. (heaves a sigh of relief).

Damn D is getting on my nerves! The fighting over easter candy is reaching ridiculous! She is picking fights over every little thing! She wants to dictate everything around this house that everyone does. Dinner is ready, more later.

As good as the day was earlier, the day went straight to hell by 6. D was great all day, but as soon as Pop went to get E, she turned into a little wench! She went from angel to devil! She started being hateful, mean, yelling, screaming. And of course, she starts she starts, T starts. Then E comes home and the back biting starts. Why do they have to pick at each other. The girls start then the boys start. And I hate it when T is so mean to J. T was so nice to J the whole time D was away. Then E comes home, D & E start and the boys go at it too. It makes me want to take mom up on her offer, but I don't know if its for selfish reasons or because it would be better for D. I think it would be better for the family unit as a whole if D lived with mom & Dad, but I would feel like a failure. And I wouldn't want her to think we didn't love her or that we didn't want her. But everything is so much smoother and calmer, and more peaceful when shes not here. I just don't know what to do. I wish I have a crystal ball that would tell me the right thing to do. I don't want her to hate me, but I want to do what's best for the family as a whole. Everything is so confusing. HELP!

Today has been wonderful! D came home last night and was good. Got lots of rest. I slept pretty well. Got up earlystarted cleaning the living room, took a shower, got Tom up. Tom decided he was horny this morning, so we got to have morning sex. A little rushed, but hey, he got on his knees until I had to beg him to stop and just give it to me! I just had to have it! So Sex before work was GREAT, and we didn't get bothered by kids until we were done :-) Needed that relief. Don't know what got into him, but I can't complain.
Then before work I came back upstairs and finished cleaning the living room, and it didn't get destroyed today while I was at work! D helped me clean up the LR when we came up, she has been so helpful. It was great. She even came to work with me. It was nice to have her there, she never complained, didn't get in the way, wasn't a nusance. It was a joy having her with me. Unusual as that sounds. I think this trip really helped her grow up a bit, I hope we can keep this behavior.
The only bad part of the day was talking to the mortgage company. They need $1000, and thats all we have in the bank. I just got paid today but it won't be credited until Friday midnight and the mortgage company wants a Cashiers check, so we have to have the money in the account before we can take it out. and I already told the mortgage co we would send it today, cause I thought we had more in the bank , by like $500. I hate when I'm off, especially by a big amount. We need to start using microsoft money again. Hell, we haven't even balanced the checkbook in ages! Oh well, as soon as we get income tax return back we'll get everything caught up and paid off and it will be ok.
Other than that little glitch its been a great day so I will dwell on the good not the bad :-D

Life would be sooo boring without best friends, especially best girl friends. Now if only mine were closer. Best friends are good to laugh with, cry with, be horny with. I miss mine. I've had so much fun with mine chatting tonight, we haven't "talked" like this in ages! It's so weird to do it while typing not in person or on the phone, but what can you do when you live 700 miles apart? I miss Luv, she is my bestest friend, we have a very deep connection. It was a very strong bond from the moment we met, only about 3 1/2 years ago. We are so much alike its scary. We are so close. Nothing is off limits with us, we can talk about anything. The only problem is oue schedules are different so we hardly have the time to talk any more. I miss you Luv. MUAH!

Why do men think once you are married they don't have to lavish you with attention anymore. I have been horny for days, but Tom has been ignoring me. Need sex. But.... He doesn't want it. Wish I could interest him.