Dear Blogger :) Ok, that sounds weird. Don't know why I feel like writing, maybe because I am in a room full of people and yet I feel alone. I don't know what's wrong with me. I subbed for Mom today, it wasn't bad. Maybe cause I'm worried about mom having cancer again, maybe cause I don't know how to deal with my feelings about her, maybe cause I feel like I need to be held and cuddled, maybe because Tom is getting worse and I don't know what to do, I feel so helpless. There is so much to do, and I don't know where to start. I wish I could put my felings into words, but I am having a hard time articulating lately. I want to be included in the group thing going on, but I'm, not sure how to go about it, probably because they're watching something I am just not interested in. I am worried about the next few weeks, but I don't even know if I should be. I want so much to be feeling myself again. It's just a case of the blahs, and I don't want it to get out of hand.

I think I will go look for some new blog layouts so I can finally get something up here.