It's been awhile. I've wanted to blog but haven't been able too for one reason or another; somebody was on the compy, homework to do, chores to do, housework, kids, ya know, the usual. School is almost over, thank GOD! Only a few more days. Finals start on Thursday, they'll be over a week from tomorrow. The only problem with school is having to do 25 hours of practicum before next Tuesday. Yes I know it's my own fault for procrastinating until the last week of school. Speaking of which, today was the first day and I loved it; small class, [i]great[/i] teacher and teaching assistant. The drive sucks, but I really like the school, I didn't think I would, but I do.

I am feeling fat lately. I have gained back all of the 15 pounds I lost, so i have been feeling fat and blotted lately and I'm afraid I won't be able to fit into my jeans, so I haven't worn them in about 2 weeks. I don't want to have that bad a feeling. I feel depressed and out of sorts.

I also have my one month anniversary on the Blogger this month, so many anniversary's of the internet this month. Blogger, Box, 2000 posts, etc etc.

Tom and I haven't made love in way too long. We've had sex (still been over a week), but not long slow passionate love. I want that. He's been staying up way too late, and drinking alot, and the mood hasn't been right. I don't know, I also feel like he's had these moods l;ately, I was starting to think he wasn't attracted anymore because of the weight thing, but last night we were getting cuddly and passionate, and he said he still loved me and was attracted...but then he left cause he "wasn't ready to go to bed yet." I waited until 2am for him to come to bed, but by then I was too exhausted and I had to get up at 6, sooooooo. Sigh.

Ok, I'm waaaay too depressed now, think I'll go shower and head to bed. :(