Thursday, April 17, 2003

As good as the day was earlier, the day went straight to hell by 6. D was great all day, but as soon as Pop went to get E, she turned into a little wench! She went from angel to devil! She started being hateful, mean, yelling, screaming. And of course, she starts she starts, T starts. Then E comes home and the back biting starts. Why do they have to pick at each other. The girls start then the boys start. And I hate it when T is so mean to J. T was so nice to J the whole time D was away. Then E comes home, D & E start and the boys go at it too. It makes me want to take mom up on her offer, but I don't know if its for selfish reasons or because it would be better for D. I think it would be better for the family unit as a whole if D lived with mom & Dad, but I would feel like a failure. And I wouldn't want her to think we didn't love her or that we didn't want her. But everything is so much smoother and calmer, and more peaceful when shes not here. I just don't know what to do. I wish I have a crystal ball that would tell me the right thing to do. I don't want her to hate me, but I want to do what's best for the family as a whole. Everything is so confusing. HELP!

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