Well it's Sunday, 4 days until Christmas and I have done NOTHING! We have no tree up, no decorations, no cookies baked, NOTHING! The house isn't even clean enough to do any of that. I am not as stressed about it this year, but I feel like I don't care that it's done or not. Liz keeps asking if we are going to have a tree. Tom won't be have a day off until Christmas Eve, so if we do the tree I have to do it by myself, and I just don't care enough to fool with it. I have almost all my shopping done. i can't figure out what to get for Tom's dad. I would also like to get one more thing for Ade. I really want to get in the holiday spirit, but can't seem to get there. I haven't even listened to one Christmas carol yet. I got out the CD's, but haven't beenin the mood enough to turn one on.

The only thing I am really looking forward to is Tony and Sherrie arriving. Except that everytime they set a date, it gets put off by one thing or another. This time it was making a trip to AAA tomorrow when they open. So it should be tomorrow. But I keep thinking that and something else happens. :sigh: I want to get my hopes up and look forward to their arrival, but I just can't live with the disappointment anymore. So I have decided to not anticipate but just be happy when they arrive. Then maybe I will be happy enough to get into the Christmas spirit, and decorate this disaster area I call a house.

I came home from shopping tonight and the boys had torn up the the styrofoam packing from the one and only Christmas decoration I took out. they tore up the syrofoam into little balls, all over the house, bedrooms, living room, kitchen. So as soon as I came home I had to bring in Kim and Patricks dogs that will be wit us until after New Years (if Pat has his way), and vacuum up he water in the basement, then come up here and sweep and pick up three rooms. It seems like Elizabeth did absolutely nothing I asked her to do while I was gone. :sigh: All the more I have to do and be overwhelmed with.