I feel so down this afternoon. Tom and I got into a fight this morning before I left for school, Thomas decided to make popcorn while everyone was asleep and burned it yet he kept trying, on EVERY bag of microwave popcorn in the house, and on top of that I didn't have a very good day at school,...late for English, had a test I wasn't prepared for, spilled my coffee on the floor before I got a sip of it, everyone is out of my cigarettes, Tony and Sherrie are both sick, everything seems to happen at once.

When I came home Tom was playing Diablo and when I tried to come over and love up to him and talk to him, it just seemed like he was more interested in his game than in me. I was stroking his face and standing next to him, and he did say "I love you" but he didn't even look at me when he said it, just kept playing his game. I hate that stupid game. So now I am kinda down and not able to concentrate, I have work to do but just want to lay around sulk.

I really don't know if it's a lack of food and caffeine and nicotine today, or if it's what happened with Tom this morning, or what it is, I just wish it would go away.

Mom wants me and Sherrie to come to a Stampin' Up party with her this evening, but I am too depressed right now, and Sherrie is probably too sick, but Mom is guilting me. I hate that! Mom is giving me grief ever since she found out about Tony and Sherrie actually coming down. She is afraid we will get taken advantage of, and won't be able to afford all these people in the house. And now I've had to borrow money from her because of the plumbing problem, so it's even worse!

We have a water leak and it's in the lawn, between meter and the house, called the plumber Friday and he was supposed to come back yesterday, but couldn't and said he would be here today, if it wasn't raining or snowing...and guess what, it's snowing! The one day I don't want snow and guess what we have. I wish this stupid plumbing would fix itself. We have to dig up our lawn, cut the sheet-rock in our bedroom, and go without water until it's fixed. We aren't without now, but once he starts, we'll be without until it's fixed. We should turn it off so it won't kill our water bill, but with 8 people in the house, it can't be helped.

So it makes sense why I am feeling down.