Today was orientation and registration. Got that over with, what a relief. It was ok. Orientation was pretty boring but not horrible. The lunch they provided was yummy. I then went to financial aide to make sure they had the money that they needed to have for me to be able to go there. Evidently, what I saw and how it is dispersed is different, so I need more money. I will have to take out a small student loanƒ¼. But they did give me an academic scholarship because of my GPA at KBC and other moneys, so that the money I have to borrow is less. I also found out that absolutely NONE of my credits from KBC would transfer over, because they were not yet accredited when I was there. So I am a lowly Freshman, instead of the Sophomore or even Junior I had hoped to be. I remember that when I was there they had the people through trying to see if they could be accredited. But evidentially, they got their accreditation after I graduated, so NONE of my previous course work counts!! ARRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!! One or two bad things can make all the good things null.

Ok, on with my day; I registered and was done with that around 3, I called home, hoping to catch Tom before he left for work, and found him home and pissed. Ellie forgot she was going to baby-sit. She can be so unreliable. So he was late for work.

Ok, back to school. I decided, on that campus I am gonna lose a lot of weight! The buildings are too close together to drive but just far enough to give you a workout. Whew, and those hills, they don¡¦t look like much, but walking up them, sure worked up a sweat. Course it was pushing 90 today. So I went and got my parking tag, I¡¦ll need to give them my tag # when I get one, and my student ID, of course they were up 3 flights of stairs. After I did that I went to the bookstore and spent, OMG, $402.00 on books! I can¡¦t believe it!

All my classes are on MWF or some variation there of. I have one Wednesday night class. My classes are Writing & Literary Studies 1 MWF 11am, College Algebra 1 MWF 12pm, Intro. To Secondary Education MW 1pm, Survey of Persons with Exceptionalities MW 3pm, And Human Development thru the Lifespan W 6pm.

I am so terrified I can hardly stand it. I am so afraid of letting everyone down. It seems like so many people count on me and believe in me, but I am having such a hard time believing in myself. This is all so scary. What if I fail. I have to keep a 3.0 GA to keep the academic scholarship, what if I can¡¦t? When am I going to take care of my family? How are we going to have enough income to survive? I will have to find a part time job other than sub work to bring in some money, but then when will I see Tom? And the kids? Elizabeth is already responsible for so much, can she handle much more? Do you see why I am scared, why I am questioning the wisdom of this decision. This may be what I want to do, but is it right? It is in the long run, but it is hard to keep the long r