Damn, today was a rough day! It was long and hard and seemed to be never ending. Got to wake up with a call from the Mortgage Company, send us money now or we foreclose. Unfortunately, I have no money. So we have to wait for Tom to get paid again, and hope we can get some more money in before they want it all by. I want so badly to borrow the money from somewhere, but I honestly have no clue where I would borrow the money. I am so tempted to call Ade or Uncle Jim, but I really don’t want to do that. I know I can’t get it from my mom, I already owe her a couple of mortgage payments.

Today was my long day at school, so it was rough. I picked up my hitchhiker, and his roommate, again this morning, I gave him my number and told him to call if he needed a ride to class. Nice guy, except he kept calling me ma’am.

I got to come home for awhile and take a short nap, My 1 o‘clock Intro. To Secondary Ed class was canceled so I got to come home, have lunch and a short nap. My English Prof. sprung another essay on us, due Friday, just the rough draft, but still, damn. When does she expect us to do it? I have no clue what I am going to write about. We will have a quiz in my Special Ed class next Mon. all memorizing dates, and law numbers. And of course in Human Development (psych) we have to read yet another section of the book, 2 more chapters, hell I never read the last 3, I didn’t realize we were supposed to. I took 5 pages of notes in there tonight! This is beginning to feel overwhelming.

On top of all that, Girl Scouts is starting up again, I am the Fall Product sale chair for the service unit (aahh) and we haven’t had our first meeting yet as a troop. I don’t know how I am going to do it this year. I feel so overwhelmed. I am going to have to get help or I will not be able to do scouts. I have decided to have a parent meeting, at Ellie’s suggestion, and inform the parents of my situation and what I will need from them. I can NOT do it all on my own!

When I came home tonight at 9:15, none of the kids were in bed. And lucky me, De was here. That frustrates the living hell out of me! I want them to be in bed at least, if not asleep. I think, when Dr. Osborne lets us out early I may go over to the MSAC or the library and hang out until 10 (when class is supposed to get out) just so I don’t have to deal with kids. I know that sounds terrible, but tonight I was in no mood. When I saw all the kids were out of bed still, I just wanted to scream! But what could I do, except help put them to bed, they are my kids after all.