Today is so lazy. I know I should do something, I just don’t want to. Something about the fact that it’s a holiday maybe. At least we got all of the recycling out and up plus I’ve gotten almost all of the laundry done. That is an accomplishment!

De is here for the afternoon. She was here for almost an hour before the fighting started. Now they have all separated, and are doing their own thing. She has changed a lot at Mom’s house, her personality, but she still can’t share with her siblings, strangers are ok, but not siblings. She always seems to want everything for herself, and anytime she is here for any length of time she reverts back to her old ways. You can see the difference when she first comes, but as time goes on, she slowly goes back…. I don’t know what to do to keep her the way she is when she first gets here, or how others see her when she is not here. Mom said they got compliments on her behavior last night at the car dealership. She watched another little boy for several hours while Mom and Dad bought a car. (They traded in their car and Ade’s car for a new one.) They were there from 4:30 until 9:30and Mom said she watched this kid for like 2 hours, a toddler, while his parents were busy buying a car. Why can’t she be that good for me, or am I just blind to it? Am I just blind to the good kid she can be? Do I just see her bad qualities? Do I look for the things that annoy me? I wish I knew. I don’t want to think that, but I am afraid that maybe I do.